September 27, 2006
September 25, 2006
September 23, 2006
I did my own text message last night to my son... He got it, and knows what it said...
Now on to a busy weekend of selling furniture. I work today, tomorrow and Monday. Hopefully business will pick up some. It's been really slow since Labor Day (it does that every year) but usually bounces back by the end of the month. I like the customers in Newport News, and I am getting used to my fellow sales associates. I hope they are getting used to me!
Not much else happening in my neck of the woods...
Over and "Out" from Toano, VA
September 20, 2006
McGreevey would still be in the closet (on the old DL) if it wasn't for the extortion attempt. I made a cognizant decision to: 1) Tell my wife before we were married, and: 2) To "out" myself to the rest of the world on my own terms, without a relationship (ie: lover) in the wings, or someone trying to ruin my name by blackmailing me.
I certainly can't imagine how his wife or children feel about him, but I do have a pretty good idea how mine do... After almost a year there is so much anger and hate still that it is like a poison. Contaminating people around us like the E. coli spinach scare.
My youngest son (19) has taken it (the hate) to new limits over the past few days... He has text messaged me 3 times, twice on my birthday (Monday) to tell me what a "piece of worthless sh*t" and "mother-f**ker" I was, and to tell me that he "hopes I die in a fire". Tonight, after getting home from work, I get a message on my cell that says: "Every time you think of me I want you to know how much I hate you, and wish death on you every day" or something along those lines...
He suspected I was gay probably 2-3 years ago after finding a chat window up on the family computer. He went to his Mom with the information, and after discussing it with her I made a choice to lie to my son. Now, mind you, the only offense that ever warranted a "spanking" for my children, was if they lied, and here Daddy was telling the biggest lie of all. I never forgave myself or my wife for talking me into that. I wanted to come out then and there and have it done, I think she thought she could buy a few more years in hopes they may be more tolerant. Either way, it was MY decision to manufacture the lie and deliver it to my son, something I will always regret and be forever sorry...
So Mr. McGreevey, I salute your coming out... I hope your family accepts your new station in life with more grace than mine.
I would not change anything about my past (with exception of the lie described above)... I love my children and never regret having them... I wish sometimes they would realize, that if I had made a decision to come out earlier in my life... They wouldn't even exist...
And that's all I have to say about that (for now)...
September 18, 2006
My daughter came down and spent the weekend with us. We had a grand time, although she was hurting from an accident of sorts, a few scrapes and a really sore body.
I woke up this morning to... well... nothing... nothing other than a regular Monday morning when I am not working, just another day really (other than the fact that I woke up laying next to the man I love). I went downstairs and got some coffee, let the dogs out, fed them, then walked back upstairs to check my email. There were a couple of shoeboxes and a card laying on top of my waiting laptop. Jim got me a beautiful dress shirt and tie, and a pair of casual khakkis from Banana Republic, one of my newest favorite places to (window) shop. I opened and read the card and started to cry. He knew exactly what to say, or more so... Exactly what I needed to hear. I met him at the bottom of the stairs and was crying as I hugged him... I think his words went something like "You're not gonna get all choked up on me now? are you?"... Oppps too late...
My brother, from Atlanta, emailed me and wished me a happy Birthday. As did my insurance agent... My brother followed his email up with a phone call though which was very nice. Then I heard from our neighbor and my cousin, the weatherman, as he drove up to Lake Anna for a day on the boat... Ahhhhhhh that is the life...
Worked 2.30 til 9pm and felt blessed that I made it through another birthday unscathed..
Lots more to think about, little else to say but Over and "Out" from Toano, VA
September 17, 2006
September 13, 2006
September 12, 2006
My friend and fellow blogger Kelly Stern, has a post today that I whole heartedly agree with. There is a time and place for everything, and I just don't think last night was appropriate for his reiteration of lame excuses for our being in Iraq or the middle-east at all, for that matter.
Disney/ABC put their political necks on the line by airing their dramatization of the events leading up to 9/11. While covering their behinds by insisting it was based only loosely on facts, they made me wonder how loosely? There seemed to be alot of indisputable realities and events, so how many of the disputed events and facts could be real as well? Seems that most affected negatively are doing major "backpaddles" up their respective creeks.
Elections are a wonderful thing, aren't they? We'll see how the American people feel about things in a couple of years, if it's not already too late.
Another missed opportunity? Not for me... and not for you to speak out and let your voice (and vote) be heard.
Over and "Totally Out" spoken, from Toano, Virginia
September 10, 2006
September 7, 2006
Otherwise, life is grand. Today is "honey do day" a list (I love lists) of things to do around the old homestead. It should keep me busy and my mind off the financial woes for the time being, at least until I have a brainstorm, or a stroke!!!